beginnings or the suit of armor

Well, it doesn't. It does not begin in any positive sense. However, we seem to be 'here', embedded in beginnings and suits of armors, and people wonder:

"Q: How do you take off your suit of armor? How do you open yourself?

A: It is not a question of how you do it. There is no ritual or ceremony or formula for opening. The first obstacle is the question itself: 'How?' If you don't question yourself, don't watch yourself, then you just do it. We do not consider how we are going to vomit; we just vomit. There is no time to think about it; it just happens. If we are very tense, then we will have tremendous pain and will not really be able to vomit properly. We will try to swallow it back, try to struggle with our illness. We have to learn to relax when we are sick"

Chögyam Trungpa. Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism. London: Shambhala, 2002. pp 49-50